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life is this thing

life is this thing where you share moments now
it used to be felt with and dealt with—more pri-vate-ly.

i've gotten used to it now, but i'm more comfortable with it then.
i could share with you this moment, forever; over and over again

theres all these platforms, theres all these things—
when i used to just lay in my room.

if my house burns down thats why i keep up with it—
these moments would live on happily forever;
we leave these trails when we're gone

occasionally i get th itch. i miss my connections.
i'm tired and i'm lonely but i dont think about it much.

this blog is here because it always was.
i stopped for awhile and it feels good to return
i hope no ones watching now—

so many things are changing; people moving on
this is . . . perhaps, transformative, for some

myself, im lost in the moment, of forever-now
occasionally, i'll drink bourbon and will see through
i hope i'm not myself, two years from now on—

we travel these fields and navigate these paths,
these memories of ourselves, will trail us forever—
informing us of our next, ever-present past.

Overwhelmed

So much has been said of it, what can be said anymore? Well, personal anecdotes that's what!
We all work too much and don't know what else to do with ourselves. It's something that happens, for varying reasons, but after awhile it just becomes endemic. I don't know if that's the word for it but it sounded right. What I am trying to say is that when you are busy as shit for like 2-3 years, thats just the new normal and you have to adjust. Then, say, you have an afternoon to yourself, you are at a loss for how to fill that time. I have experienced this and it is a disconcerting feeling. After all, I have never been one to not know what to do with myself. For years it was skateboarding. I filled my free time with skateboarding. I grew up listening to music in my bedroom. I could just "be." I watched minimal TV. I watched skate videos and read some here and there. Anyway, swaying off topic...

I don't want stuff, I want time.

Here is a recent article, book review, from The New Yorker that really is worth reading; a distillation of the books best precepts and points. Read it here.

One of the many things that stuck with me and keeps me thinking about the value and quality of life and our time (abridged, a bit):

"In the nineteen-seventies, the British, the French, and the Germans—though notably not the Italians—put in just as many hours at work as Americans. But then the Europeans began trading income for leisure. The average employed American now works roughly a hundred and forty hours more per year than the average Englishman and three hundred hours more than the average Frenchman. (Current French law mandates that workers get thirty paid vacation days per year, British law twenty-eight; the corresponding figure in the U.S. is zero.) Stiglitz predicts that Europeans will further reduce their working hours and become even more skilled at taking time off, while Americans, having become such masterful consumers, will continue to work long hours and to buy more stuff. TVs, he notes, “can be put in every room and in both the front and the back of automobiles.”

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